Experiment: Less coke. I managed 7 days with about 3 liters.
Results: None.Statements: It's not dependency. It's just that without it life seams so not worth living. This sounds like the definition of an obsession, aka love, from many not worth seeing movies. Hyperactivity or whatever this is called it's even worse without the coke. You can't focus, you're tired and it's probably worse than before, but with this lack of focusing you can't really be sure, you just remember that it was bad even before.
Conclusions: So maybe it takes longer the get it out of the system (never?). Or maybe it works like the substance D from A Scanner Darkly movie and my brain hemispheres, there are two of those obviously, are competing. Or maybe it's something opposed to rapid eye movement thing, even if REM are a good band. It's something like a blurring fixation with long periods of no eye movement. Like concentrating on a point without really being concentrated at it, somewhere between the sacred silence and sleep (disorder?). My hemispheres are not killing each other (they are not? really?). Hyperactivity, toxicity, dependency, placebo... fuck that.
Title: Pulp. Is a book that mocks other bocks.
Post category: Mock me
